Thursday 1 May 2008

Update


Why is it that one day you feel like the whole world belongs to you and the very next day you feel like the very same world is falling to pieces and coming to an end? Just a few days back, I wouldn't even believe if you told me that, I was so enthusiastic about work, future, life in general and yet today it feels like it all just doesn't matter and doesn't make much sense?

The video is about a professor from Carnegie Mellon University, his "last lecture" as they call it there. Cancer. 6 months to go. Tops. that was back in Sept 2006, well he's still hanging in there. What would you do if you knew when it's gonna come? Dunno... Would you like to know? Don't think so... It's not the video that put in my current state, it's rather my state what made me find this video.
 I remember a quote that I used once for a special someone. It goes somewhat like so: 
"Sometimes we put up walls, not to keep people out, but to see who cares enough to break them down." I think it was by M. Twain, but don't hold me to that. Anyways, Randy paraphrases this saying that walls that life puts in front of you are there to break them down, well question is how many of them do you have to break to finally get there? Is there a shortcut? a way around?
Anyways I'm sick, sitting home and I guess I've got too much time to think and that usually doesn't work well 4 me.
On the other note, I haven't had my hands on my camera for nearly two months now. Doesn't feel right. Maybe I should sell it. And get a car instead...
Almost two weeks since I filed my papers for a business visa, still 2-5 to go. Life sucks... I wish I could start working full steam and finally have some decent income. Resources are shrinking by the day, and what if.... what then?

1 comment:

Anonymous said...

biznes visa? Jak nie wyjdzie to znajdz dziewczyne, odpal jej troche kasy, ozen sie z nia i mozesz sobie pracowac ile chcesz. Druga mozliwosc: zapytaj ozika albo permanenta zeby otworzyl firme i wtedy mozesz swiadczyc uslugi w imieniu firmy (ty pokrywasz koszty, moze mu odpal cos?)
Jak potrzebujesz pomocy to pisz na cypshak2@o2.pl. Podaj adres na forum, z ktorego wysylasz zebym wiedzial, ze to od ciebie (albo w komentarzach)

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